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Friday, August 13th, 2004
2:37 pm	I feel like complete crap! I've been on vacation and today is the first day I've really fixed myself up...for no reason other than bum clothes and no makeup and frizzy hair was destroying what little self esteem I had left. Its not like we're even going anywhere...just staying down here in my sister's basement until we leave tomorrow morning. I feel so fat and ugly. I have about four zits right in the middle of my forehead...I haven't had a breakout like this in over 6 months. I could just cry. I forgot to bring all the special shampoos and crap for my ratnest hair so I had to wash my hair with my sister's nasty 2 in 1 crap and it made my hair really gross. So today I straightened it and its still really frizzy and I can't do a damn thing with it. So then I put on makeup and obviously did something wrong cause it looks hideous...maybe just cause its on me, and a cute outfit but my fat ass is just about too big for the skirt...which was too big a month ago. To top it all off I miss my bf like mad..I could just kill myself right now. :'o( Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
9:45 pm	Well, today I ate horribly. I didn't even bother counting the cals, I know it was way over my limit. I'm trying for under 500 tomorrow then I'm gonna try to start a fast friday. Its so hard to restrict with my mom around. She's a nutritionist and is always on my case about eating right. Grr. Anyway she's going to nag me till the cows come home about eating enough...I am going to have a hard time with this until school starts back again next tuesday. My info: h: 5'6.5" cw: 121.5 hw: 122 lw: 119 stgw: 110 ltgw: 100 or less I guess my long term goal is like 80 but you know you never feel like anything is small enough and I have to start somewhere. I will reach somewhere in the double digits sooner than later though!! Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)